HUNGER

today i awakened broke
and very hungry
i decided to try the soup kitchen
to relieve the pain in my gut
i walk there in a hunger inspired
daze that comes from three days
without food or sleep
just a diet of speed and malt liquor
i stand in line behind this woman
she is very thin and diseased looking
but in my self induced delirium
i think to myself that she is only
a bath, make-up, a bathing suit and a good
hollywood agent away from super-model status
and public objectification
before i can even understand why i would
think such a thing the line begins to move
and we enter the door without any indication that
she even acknowledged my presence
before she takes my hand and leads me
to the bathroom without saying a word
and i remember the time i lost my virginity
to my babysitter without saying a word
so i go willingly and once the bathroom door
is closed and locked behind us
we begin to kiss aggressively
our tongues swelling inside each otherʼs mouth
we are both very hungry
we fondle each other under our
multiple layers of clothing
our skin so much like old leather
our ability to feel so dull
we have to nearly lacerate each other
just to get some sensation
but when we get to our areas
that have gone neglected for so long
a gentle mood overcomes us both
and sex seems so nostalgic
i stroke her clit until her pussy becomes moist
and she caresses my cock and balls
tenderly until i can muster a hard-on
we hastily pull down our pants and crusty
long underwear as she sits back on the edge
of the sink and i cup her ass in my hands as she
pulls my swollen member into her dripping crotch
and the smell is so ripe and i tilt my head back and
close my eyes and begin to stroke
she thrusts her hips up and towards me
and i squeeze her closer with each thrust
until there is a wet slapping and sucking noise
at the same time and then we both begin to moan
and i start to move faster and i come before
she does so begins to rub my flaccid dick
against her clit and fingers herself while i squeeze
her ass and bite her neck until she comes too
i have not bathed in at least two months
and the sweat and jism running down our legs
leaves black marks where it has mixed
in with the crusted on dirt and scum
i look into her eyes into the only beauty
that i have seen for a long time
we embrace and i feel like crying
suddenly she says “i love you”
and the mood is broken
it is the first verbal event
since i first saw her in line
i become angry
what the fuck does she mean by love?
it is just another luxury that i cant afford
and at that moment
the mood is broken again
by someone banging at the door
and i realize that i am still hungry